3 months ago (well nearly) I wouldn't have thought I'd be sitting here writing this. That time I was sick and fed up and ready to give up on, well, me. I felt frumpy and old, ugly and fat, unwanted and unloved, used and laughed at, pushed aside and left for something better. Now? Well now I feel ok ... I don't feel frumpy or old (just 42) i'm not ugly and I'm cuddly not fat, I feel wanted and 'loved', unused and laughed WITH LOL

David's getting a new job, yippeeeeee. A happy him means a happy family life (well happier, can't expect miracles straight away) he starts in 6 - 8 wks depending on security checks and it can't come soon enough. Plus more money too, not a huge amount I can't give up my job just yet LOL

Me? I wake in the morning and look forward to the day, I have decided that ones persons actions towards me will not alter my outlook on life. I am a naturally happy person and that is how I will remain I don't let one insignificant person enter into my mind anymore and I find it isn't hard to do. Makes me think that after such a short time I feel this way, were the feelings I thought I had true in the first place? I really think not.

So now... I move to multiply. That is my new start and nothing of my past (well this subject) will be mentioned there. A New beginning for Red One!

Thanks for listening to my moans and groans I really have some true friends on here and I'm so glad I'm not going to lose you lot!

See you over there