I found today these words from Confucious, it always makes me feel touched, very humble, grateful, surprised and amazed when I found thoughts that were born thousands of years ago, ancient words of wisdom that not matter the time passed still have the power to touch, inspire, enlighten,get to communicate with other souls in another time..... as I realise we all are in anytime travellers in the same road, in the journey of learning, discovering about ourselves and our purpose in this our time of our present life.

I believe Im in a journey to discover myself and to discover who I am who I can be, who I will become... and there are the steps, the stops, the encounters, the inspirations, the enrichement of it all. I feel is all about the journey not the destination, cause the journey, the experiences, the people who touch my life on my way makes me the person who will arrive at the destination.

I think of me first of all as a human being in evolution, and I can see it and feel it, and in those moments of discovering and understanding something new in me, something in me I haven´t seen before and inner emotion that will stay with me, in me, from then on, opens my heart,my soul to understand my soul, the one that has been travelling long before this my life.
Im just happy to change and grow and I keep learning, keep discovering, keep smiling and keep going with all my heart on, as the ancient wisdom words said. There is not other way to travel but love what and who life brings to you as they change you to be better each time.

I met in the last month and a half of my journey a special human being, a kind soul, a warm heart and this encounter have brought up in me things new for me, I have learnt a lot about myself and I feel thankful for that. Im somehow different, and the same. Im richer in my heart. Im wiser too.

I read in a very inspiring book that I recommend: "Friends and lovers" by Julian Sleigh these inpiring words:
" There are warm places in every person´s soul.
These places can be filled with feeling for others, and those others can be aware of this feeling. Something passes between persons who carry in themselves a warm feeling for each other: feeling itself flows through those souls and unites them. An openess towards this power of feeling enables the warm places in each person to be alive and active.
Friendship can only exists in such warm places.
Friendship is a phenomenon, deserving our reverence and awe. Is a gift that each one of us can nurture, it does not just happen.Its precious"

I feel thankful for that, for the warmth inside my heart last month.

Life is a mistery, love always is. It amazes you, surprises you, gives you joy, sorrow, moves your heart, warms it, thrills it with unstoppable joy, strikes it with sadness sometimes, above all makes you feel, shines the light inside, makes you grow, evolve, discover and learn about yourself, about your power to feel and give, about your inner strenght too.

When the heart dreams, it dreams of love and magic and sometimes we wake up into a now full of it, sometimes we wake up on tears but we keep dreaming and dreams are made of hope too, so we hope now too.

Enjoy moments, coming now to you, thats what life and dreams are made of, moments and surprises.

I love this song from Ray Lamontaigne ."Be here now", love many of his songs, he is a poet and his lyrics are beautiful:

"Don't let your mind get weary and confused
Your will be still, don't try
Don't let your heart get heavy child
Inside you there's a strength that lies

Don't let your soul get lonely child
It's only time, it will go by
Don't look for love in faces, places
It's in you, that's where you'll find kindness

Be here now, here now
Be here now, here now

Don't lose your faith in me
And I will try not to lose faith in you
Don't put your trust in walls
'Cause walls will only crush you when they fall

Be here now, here now
Be here now, here now"

Its been a while since I wrote here, four months!. Doesn´t feel it was that long, feels like just said to myself will write there soon and here I´m four months later.

Time seems to go very fast, so we say most of the times. But only when we stop to think about it, when we look back to some extend of time, we realize how fast or how slow it feels like it went by.

Time is made of moments. As the writer Cesare Pavere said:"We don´t remember days, we remember moments". We remember the moments that filled our time, our life , those are the moments we remember they went by, we remember how those moments made us feel, we remember how we felt, how we were back then, we remember specially the people who shared them with us.

We remember how some of those moments, how some people made us change, evolve, inspired a different direction to our life, made us take decisions we are proud we took. We remember how those moments made us the way we are.

The moments we live are, were, will be unique at their time and they will never happen in the exactly the same form or way. In their circumstances, especially in the people that were around us living them with us, they were, they are unique, and as unique we should enjoy them. Sometimes we are not aware enough of this, of some of these moments coming to our life, in a unique moment of time and opportunity.

Sometimes we are wise enough, lucky enough, crazy enough to grab their world of possibilities, sometimes we let them go thinking there will be another chance, another time, and sometimes there is, sometimes there won´t. As confusing as all this is, that´s the magic of living, expect the unexpected and trust your heart in what to do with it, and hope, hope your choice in opening the mistery they offer will be the right one.

Some moments we would have liked they last forever, sometimes we would have liked they were full of events we were hoping for. We hope then, now, that what we do is the right thing to make us happy.

Some moments bring to our life people that lights it up, it might just be the first time we see that person, and a match in our inner match box, where our heart lives is lighten up, and we feel happy in a joyful, overwhelming, unstoppable way. We remember how we felt in some moments and somehow we should learn to keep that feeling, to remember it, to find when we are not in love with anyone things that makes us happy, that warm our heart , little simple things to turn to when we need joy. Learn to light up a match inside us when we need it, when we need warmth in our heart.

We can find someone who inspires us, our strenght, like for me is my best friend,David. Find something that makes us happy, that lights up our inner being. Find joy in small things, that are big to us, that have an effect in us, it could be a place where we feel alive, strong, our spiritual place, for me is the forest, I get strength there, I walk feeling the wind passing my hands, filling my eyes with the green in the trees, feeling wrapped in them, feeling small next to their majestic presence, feeling small under their wise look from up there.

“Me, myself and I”, me, the “me” I remember I was in that my past that I remember, the one I now can see how she did back then, how she went through the moments back then, how the decisions I took back then, were the path to a happy now .The lessons I learnt then.

“Myself”, my present , the one trying to be strong, trying to find the right things to do, the one that wonders if the mystery that time will bring, if the decisions she is taking will make happy the herself that lives in the future that I can´t see now. “I” that´s my mistery, the version of myself I will be soon, in my future. I can´t see her now, hope when I get there I managed to build her happiness today.

Hope I can light my matches all the way to there.

One of my favourite songs ...This song soothes something deep inside me every time I listen to it. I can, just as the song says, lie down, close my eyes and just listen to the song and feel rain and wind in my face, move my hands and just feel the wind passing around me.

Here in Kilkenny I have my secret place,the one I love to go to, the magic one for me that fills my heart, my soul with energy.... the forest around the castle, I walk in there, into the trees, into their deep green and brown that wraps my thoughts, my heart, my mind in silence.

There is there too a big green in front of the castle, the inmense green where I want to just lie down in a cloudy windy day and stare at the passing bye clouds above and play this song.

"Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see"

Lets waste time in your perfect eyes